The Gospel According to Ern

my heart is numb has no feeling...

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 08:01:31 GMT

um ok. how do i put this?

ireland haunts me. it really does. i'm at the point where i avoid sleeping because everytime i sleep i go back there. i talked to iain today. surprisingly, it was a good conversation. and in other news... i found one of my friends on bebo. i wasn't going to add him, but then i did. and honestly, i don't know how i didn't find him sooner. he was literally right under my nose. wow. i feel like an idiot. i hate being home. i'm in a rut, i feel stuck. in a box mostly, among other things. it isn't even that here i have to be responsible. i can be responsible in ireland too, it's that i'm so lonely. i don't fit in here. for years i have tried to get a job and i haven't been able to. el paso is not the place for me. neal never was the person for me so mindy can stop being jealous. i don't like him anymore. that was over three years ago. he's like a brother. really. and andy... well, andy may not be the person for me. three weeks ago i thought maybe we should give it a chance, but i don't really feel like it's what i need right now. especially not with chris kelly haunting my dreams. i want to see faith. to hang out with alex, to cry with kandice and scream with liz. i want to hold on to fintan and get high with chris and laugh with ally over everything and nothing. i want to eat with aidan and fight with connell. and i want to dance with pat and talk with mickey. i want to see conan laugh.
and i don't care how emo the title of this entry is because it fits. it really does. i've been thinking a lot lately... about love. it's what i learned the most about in ireland. next to learning about ireland. really.

love is a subject that has been contemplated for centuries by poets, playwrights and ordinary people. many of the most popular movies are about not only romance but the many dimensions of love and the different forms it takes. the most obvious of course is love actually. then there are woody allen films most recently match point, john cusack's frank films such as chasing amy and high fidelity. then there are the tear jerkers like the notebook or message in a bottle. all attempt to explain the confusing subject that is love. as a teenager, i once had an argument with my father about love. 'you can't choose who you fall in love with' i insisted. since then, i've learned more. and while i still believe you can't choose who you fall in love with, i do believe you can choose who to love. let me explain.
in january of 2007, i got on a plane to belfast. as i was preparing myself for the five months i was going to be gone, i had a series of conversations with my family about their worries for me while i was abroad. 'mom's worried you'll give up on love' abbie told me. what they didn't realize was that i already had.
until i lived in derry, my notions of love-true love-were well, limited. i was childish. like a lovesick little girl, i thought too much and read into things way too often. ireland was the perfect place for me to go. my first night, i was bombarded by drunken men who showered me with compliments and offered me drinks. it was meaningless. but it was fun.
then as we got setled into derry and met more of the students the offers and the men became less of a diversion in the way of being fun and more of a complication. it's hard to be in one place for five months and see the same people everyday without getting attached. you fall in love not only with the guys, but with your new friends and the place itself.
as cheesy as it is, the tv show charmed helped me to understand everything i was feeling. in the final episode, leo asks cooper if he's ever had his heart broken. when coop says no, leo replies, 'then you know nothing about love.' the irony? coop is a cupid.
it's true though. i didn't realize any of this until i got back and felt like crying everyday for a month and a half. my heart was broken. and what was most remarkable was that it wasn't like anything i'd ever felt before. it was then that i knew i'd grown up. that i'd begun to understand more about this perplexing subject of love. it's a more mature and important feeling and notion than we give it credit for. and it isn't always fantastic or simple. a lot of the time it's complicated. when the time comes for you to settle down, it's a choice in which love is often not the only factor.
we make our own decisions about who we give our love to, be it the druggie guy with a soft heart or the lonely security guard who wanders the grounds in the cold. it isn't always a sexual love. or a romantic love. and it isn't always obvious. love isn't always a yearning. sometimes it's a choice. but that doesn't mean it's any less meaningful or worthwhile.
sometimes the choices are hard to make and sometimes the timing is off and you have to choose to be silent. no matter how, in a perfect world, things could have happened. those instances are difficult, but if there's one thing that's been drilled into my head, it's that you will move on. heartbreak shouldn't kill you. love is meant to be experienced in its fullness from beginning to end. in order for that to happen, your heart has to be broken.
i hate to take it back to this, but it's necessary. in charmed, leo is right when he tells coop he knows nothing about love without the experience of a broken heart.
no one can escape it. the truth is that when it comes to others, especially to others you love, you shouldn't make any assumptions or read into things too much. you won't ever really know unless you ask. and if you ask, you have to accept the answer. if you don't, it only causes more issues and you'll ruin things before they even get started.
so the key then is to take it day by day and relax and enjoy each other's company. address issues as they arise and don't let them build up. and don't be afraid to speak up. expressing yourself helps to build an atmosphere of trust.
no, i did not have a relationship in ireland, that's not to say that i couldn't have. even though there were options i could have pursued i chose not to. and even though i chose not to, i still fell in love and my heart was still broken. you can't escape it, but you can learn from it.

there. i feel better now.

sometimes life just sucks

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 19:49:08 GMT

i really am enjoying it here, i just saw something that pissed me off because it hit a sore subject.

i know that while i've been here it's been like i'm a different person. a drunkard some might call it, but honestly, i really don't think there is anything wrong with the way i have been living my life. there is something wrong with getting pissed every night and not being able to remember anything but i don't do that and the second i started i stopped.

alcohol is something completely different over here. in the states there is so much emphasis on alcoholism but the only issue with alcohol is binge drinking. whatever. i hate feeling like i'm being judged and i really felt it today.

and i guess it could be argued that i wouldn't be so offended if i didn't have a problem with it myself. and obviously i do. i have hives because i have been freaking out over the fact that last night was the first night all week that i have not had alcohol.

this timeline is for myself because i need to visualize this.

last sunday--peadar's
monday--union
tuesday--union and carraig
wednesday--sugar
thursday--ice warf and the union
friday--mal's and bound4
sat--st. paddy's day, carraig and ice warf
sun--rearranged my room (no alcohol!!)
monday--pepe's and the icewarf then kings
tuesday--watched kisskiss bang bang--taking a break.
and today we're going to sugar hopefully meeting up with mick and pat. :)

so i guess it's not as bad as i thought but it really kind of is... i just feel like i've been doing too much lately, going and going and going and trying to fit in and do what everyone wants me to do but i just need a break, to chill and hang out. i spent all of yesterday in my bed. i got up to pee and to eat but i went straight back to bed and i was still able to sleep all night and take a nap today. my legs are so sore from not resting. i haven't done anything overly exerting. there is no reason i should have trouble walking, yet my legs are killing me.

i have to go to the library tomorrow and do research for my paper that's due next week. and this weekend i'm going to Dublin. woohooo! i'm really excited but not so much really. whatever.

gotta go.

erin

it's literally been two weeks and everything has changed.

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 12:42:46 GMT

here's a quick rundown

-i've made three awesome friends that i would give my life for
-some guy gave me his number and well, that's a story in itself
-kandice and i sat down and figured out we had met and could claim to know over 45 people, the majority of which are male
-i have gone out almost every single night i've been here
-i realized just how much i love kids
-i've decided to put my degree more on an international track

i almost don't want to come home.

believe it or not, all these things are huge changes for me. College was one thing, it was major but it was nothing compared to this. When I got to Trinity I was shocked and I felt like my dream of what college life would be was destroyed before my eyes. Then I felt like my definition of who I was and what I believed was utter crap. That was devastating. But now, I'm in Ireland. I have to keep saying it because I don't quite believe it. A lot of the time it feels like I'm going to wake up tomorrow in my dorm room in San Antonio and go with Liz and Britni to Wal Mart to get cookie dough and a movie from Hollywood Video.

In the past 14 days, I have learned so much about myself and what I want out of life that it is almost overwhelming. I really like the attitudes of people here and was uttlery astonished at how similar they were to my own. I always felt like I was different at home. Different in a good way yes, but also different in a bad way. Different in a way that made me less wanted, less successful. But here, I'm different because I'm American but even that isn't really a barrier to anything. Being in another country really makes you see how ridiculous you are. In a way, I'm almost dreading coming home because I know it won't be the same, and I know I'll probably be bummed out for the first while that I'm there.

I love that here, there is a work ethic, but it's pretty much you gotta do what you gotta do to survive. But when you're done, you enjoy life. They say that for every class there are about 4 hours of work that you have to do outside of it. It sounds like a lot. But in reality, it's not really that demanding. I have two days a week to commit to laundry and homework. 4 if you count Saturday and Sunday. But at night, life starts. I don't just mean that people go out and get trashed. People actually enjoy each other's company. People dance. and yes, I do mean all people. Occasionally you'll meet the guy that stands and watches but even they are sociable. Hardly anyone talks trash. They make fun of each other yes, but that's part of the culture. Most of the people I've met are pretty up front and honest. And you know what? I've come out of my shell with people here faster than I ever have before. I'm comfortable.

We went on a homestay this past weekend in the country. I stayed with a family with 7 children and I absolutely loved them. The two kids that were there the most were 9 and 11. Terry and Jayne. They made me miss my nephews and my neice, but mostly, they made me realize that I do want kids. That's one thing. Before I came here, my mom told my sister that she was afraid I would give up on love and she was worried that I was going to come here looking for love. She was wrong. I pretty much already had given up on love and I came here to get away from everything. I ran away. I really did. But in the past two weeks (I know it sounds crazy) one of the things I've learned is just how important love is. It gives light to life. Of course I knew this before, but I didn't really know it. I knew it in a Casablanca, Cary Grant sort of way. You know romantic comedies. I also knew about obligated love and family love, but I had never really seen a happy love that didn't make me sick. Erik and Jenny were almost there, but you know. It's really too early to say anything about their relationship.

The family I stayed with loved each other so much it made me so happy. I was so comfortable around them. Mary and Austin cooked together and did the dishes together. They both put the kids to bed. I have this great picture of Mary holding Terry inside her jacket at a gaelic football match. It's adorable. And my program, I am so happy with. At orientation I was still a bit worried, but when we moved in to our flats, our coordinator James carried all our luggage and he's pretty much the most adorable man I have ever met. We're going to Zio's on the 12th (two days before Valentine's Day) to have dinner with him. And this professor from Coleraine drove us up to campus and convinced James to take us on a trip with him. He's freaking awesome and incredibly helpful.

But mostly, I have learned to relax. I try to ignore the drama and just have a good time. And the thing that's most important is to laugh at yourself. I do it all the time. And it's probably what's helped me get along so well here. Everyone is going to make fun of you. The best thing you can do though is laugh with them, at yourself. They'll like you if you do. Plus, it's so much easier to live life when you're not looking for things to be upset about. I love it. I love this place. I can't wait to see what happens the rest of the semester.

And, I really like that my bonds with my siblings and with Liz (my roommate) are standing up. I am really happy about that. Being outside of America really helps me see what's important in life. And right now, the most important thing for me is enjoying it. I don't mean I'm going to go cliff diving tomorrow or anything. Just that from day to day things change and to a certain degree, you have to just live in the moment and let things happen. Not everything can be planned. I've said all this before. I just never thought it was important because the American attitude is much more calculated and planned. Everyone in America has a datebook. And friendly lunches have to be penciled in. Here, what happens happens, and generally, its all good.

Well, I have to go get detergent now because apparently the stuff I bought was just fabric softener. Oh fuck me.

Hehe.

Peace

alright kiddos... i'm finally updating.

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 16:30:28 GMT

Well guys, I'm in Ireland. I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye before I left, I'm horrible at keeping in touch and at saying goodbyes. I am pretty much socially disfunctional.

Ireland is awesome. I love it. Though the gray skies could become annoying after a while. I absolutely love it, only having 3 classes a week, one class a day sounds like it's going to be awesome.

I'll write more later. gotta go.

my hands look like the hands of a dead man

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 14:24:55 GMT

the fingernails are blue, the skin tight and shriveled. the white of my nails starkly contrasting my pale skin.

i've been up all night writing a paper. i'm not done yet.

but i'm about two shakes away from complete and utter brain fry. however you say that... my brain is almost done working for the duration.

i'm not really thinking any coherent thoughts that don't have anything to do with faulkner.

woohoo!

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 19:48:44 GMT

off i go to austin! have a good weekend everyone! :)

you can catch up with yourself if you run

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 18:31:39 GMT

hmmmm well. friday will be here before i know it. now i just have to get through this week and happiness will be :)

I'm happy :)

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 04:27:03 GMT

Good news people

-As far as I'm concerned, I am definitely going to Ireland and it's looking more and more like I don't have to sell myself on the streets
-I am becoming at least partially financially responsible and self sufficient.
-I am going to Austin next week, twice, for 2 shows. The first, I'm not really too excited about, I'm mainly going for a friend... is the Decemberists, and the second, I am so happy, I am practically giddy about is Rise Against. I finally found someone to go with me, but if they don't come I am going to be pretty crushed and I will probably have to resort to inviting my pretentious snob of a friend :0 oh well I guess if it comes to it, I will do what I have to. But even then, I am still super excited. I get to see RISE AGAINST. That's so freaking awesome. I can't get over it.

ok, that's all I should get back to (not) working.

:)

For anyone who's interested....

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 22:31:31 GMT

I looked it up on Mugglenet.com and both the fifth movie and the seventh book are slated to come out next summer :) Oh I should mention that I'm talking about Harry Potter. Mugglenet has lots of stuff about the new book, plus a really long interview from J.K. Rowling. I feel like a kid again :-D

Do I have to??

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 17:14:54 GMT

School is killing me, but I do have good news and bad news. I guess I will start with the bad news first...

the bad:
-I haven't had a chance to start my ten page paper that's due Thursday yet because I have been working nonstop on my Urban Economics project.
-I am broke. Broker than broke.
-I have thus far been rejected from every single campus organization that I have applied to. And each one tells me that there is a place for every leader on campus and they are sure I will find mine soon. Well, I have news for them. Unless my place is the dumpster, I am running low on options.
-I am having difficulty finding a job
-If I am successful in finding a job, I will be homeless for two weeks before I can move into the house I am renting with an unknown group of classmates.
-Trinity professors are upset that they get bad evaluations so they will no longer permit students to offer what they think of their professors anonymously. (of course, this doesn't directly affect me, but it's just another example of how uptight and controlling Trinity is. The school has issues.)

now for the good:
-I get to go to Ireland
-I can do whatever I want when I get there
-I only need 12 more credits after next semester to graduate.

*this is me doing a happy dance.... nanny nanny boo boo*

The only issue with going to Ireland is that I will not be able to go to Chris' wedding at Notre Dame. But I will be there in spirit, because they're the fighting Irish, and I will be in Ireland. My whole family is going. It's amazing. My brother's best man. And and!! he has a GIRLFRIEND! how freakishly amazing is that?
I think he's afraid of the committment, and he's trying not to show me that he actually cares about her. It's so funny, and yet, a little annoying. His phone was glued to his ear the entire time I hung out with him.

Oh and I saw Derailed. It was good. So... good. I drank it in. Kinda trippy. And also, I saw Fun With Dick And Jane and my brother and I agree that it was marketed wrong. well, not wrong, but it was a shabby job. They marketed it like it was just another Jim Carey film. It was funny, but it was a satire. It was not Jim Carey being an ass. If the producers had marketed the movie better, I think more people would have seen it and more people would have been more willing to see it.

ok time to email ASR about the stupid course evals.

hmm

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 00:56:56 GMT

I pulled into Nazareth, was feeling 'bout half past dead
I just need some place where I can lay my head
Hey, mister, can you tell me, where a man might find a bed?
He just grinned and shook my hand, "No" was all he said.

Take a load off Fanny, take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny, and you put the load right on me

I picked up my bags, I went looking for a place to hide
Then I saw old Carmen and the Devil, walking side by side
I said, "Hey, Carmen, c'mon, let's go downtown"
She said, "I gotta go, but my friend can stick around"

Take a load off Fanny, take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny, and you put the load right on me

Go down, Miss Moses, ain't nothin' you can say
It's just old Luke, and Luke's waiting on the judgement day
Well, Luke, my friend, what about young Annalee
He said, "Do me a favour, son, won't you stay and keep Annalee company"

Take a load off Fanny, take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny, and you put the load right on me

Crazy Chester followed me, and he caught me in the fog
Said, "I will fix your rag, if you'll take Jack, my dog"
I said, "Wait a minute Chester, you know, I'm a peaceful man"
He said, "That's ok, boy, won't you feed him when you can"

Take a load off Fanny, take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny, and you put the load right on me

Catch the cannonball, now to take me down the line
My bag is sinking low, and I do believe it's time
To get back to Miss Fanny, you know she's the only one
Who sent me here, with her regards for everyone

Take a load off Fanny, take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny, and you put the load right on me

dr pepper and twix: the ultimate stress out snack

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 05:17:33 GMT

You see, I have a major paper due tomorrow that I haven't started yet. And, I really am not that stressed about it. I'll get it done, I have faith. and... I just poured my heart out in an email to my friend that I really don't feel like reiterating. Soo... sorry for the pointless entry guys. Just had to let you know I'm still alive!

stealing the young girls' hearts

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 05:50:06 GMT

i guess thats what men do today right?

i was going to write a good post... a real one. but you know what? life's going well, today at least. i mean, everyone has their rough times right? me? i had one just last week, but i have good friends, girl scout cookies and chinese food to keep me company. oh and chocolate. lots of chocolate. who cares about love lost but never found. psh. this past week has shown me the hurts of so many others that i have reached the point of no longer really caring about my own. well except, if the bank doesnt give me my money soon, they really will hear about it. but... as far as that goes, there's nothing i can do right now. so im happy. really happy. not estatic. but happy.

this entry is for lizzie and candy (and whoever else feels like reading it of course)

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:13:58 GMT

I went to church today.

It was, how do I put this? Interesting.

We walked in and sat down in the pew, and I looked around and noticed how beautiful the church was. It really was. But there wasn't really an altar. I don't know maybe there was, but I couldn't see it. And mass just seemed really... strange. Almost like when we sang at Jubie's church. But it's catholic, I promise. We knealt, and stood and prayed, all the normal stuff, except there wasn't a choir, well I take that back, there were a lot of people in the balcony so maybe it was a full choir but you could only hear one person. and the Monsignor's homily was hard to get into. It was like he was reading us an essay. And that's all well and good, if that speaks to you, but I like it when the priest talks to you. When he looks out at the congregation speaking from his heart, talking to us in a language we all understand. I hope you know what I mean by that, not language in the sense of English or Spanish, but embracing the community and inviting them to see things the way he thinks about them.

This church, it wasn't humble. And I feel like that's the kind of church I need.

I want a priest that is approachable.

and i realized, also, that lately, I really have been questioning a lot. and before, I was so angry all my questions seemed to fade away. But now, I feel like I know what I believe, and the friends I've shared this with seem to think I need to be born again. I don't think so. Honestly, just because you go through some hard times doesn't make you any less of a Christian. Even so far as being a Christian goes, I often doubt if I am one, because I'm not one by the Trinity definition. But going to church in a Catholic church, saying the creed, it just feels right. And it's at those moments that I know who I am and what I believe. But when I come back here, I feel like less of a person. I feel like I'm not good enough. I guess that's why I've decided to find a church of my own.

I don't really feel like I've explained this well enough. I know I didn't, but I really don't know what else to say. It's hard to put into words exactly what I'm thinking right now. I'll try again later to describe it.

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 07:17:30 GMT

i found this on postsecret... i thought it was interesting...

wow, its been a month

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 07:41:22 GMT

well, its been a month since i last updated, and i'm glad to say, nothing too big has changed in my life. i'm still erin. im still single. im still a sophomore, and i'm still loving it.

as much as this year has killed me, emotionally and academically, i am so happy to be going home. i know things probably wont be any better, but i doubt they will be any worse. and, well, there is always something to be learned from new experiences, even bad ones.

i am so confused though. i like him, but others still intrigue me and i dont know what i am going to do about it, if i am going to do anything.

i was an hour and a half late to work tonight because i was hanging out with him and didnt even realize it. dear god, please let everything work out well.

good luck on finals everyone, hope you're all doing well :)

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:03:12 GMT

natalie portman is my hero :)

i love this song

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 20:10:00 GMT

One last thing I beg you please just before you go
I've watched you fly on paper wings halfway round the world
Until they burned up in the atmosphere and sent you spiraling down
landed somewhere far from here with no one else around
to catch you falling down
and I'm looking at you now

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you, and neither am I

"Swing for the fences son" he must have told you once
that was a conversation you took nothing from
so raise your glass now and celebrate exactly what you've done
just put off another day of knowing where you're from
and you can catch up with yourself if you run...

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you, and neither am I

is this the life that you lead?
or the life that's lead for you?
will you take the road that's been laid out before you
will we cross paths somewhere else tonight? somewhere else tonight...

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you, and neither am I

For those of you who haven't heard of them Rise Against is a politically active punk rock band. They rock. you all should check them. All of the songs on their cd are awesome. They force you to listen to them. I absolutely love it. ok im done :)

a couple songs you should all check out...

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:02:05 GMT

counting crows-- high life
lifehouse-- chapter one
rise against-- swing life away

go.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 06:17:17 GMT

I am incredibly bored!!!!! ok, but I do have homework that obviously, i could be doing. and i could be reading the dante club by matthew pearl.

*later*

man, i'm tired and i am tired of being irritable. i have a stupid aesthetics midterm (part 2) on friday. grr. im sleepy and i have homework, so im going to bed. that is, after i do my homework..........

grr.

things i hate...
1) drama
2) cell phones
3) stupid people (mean people qualify here as well.)
4) STATS
5) being angry (it just downright sucks)
6) boys... they can go suck my left nut for all i care.

growl

what my roommate and i do on a friday night....

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 05:46:17 GMT

Now this is the story all about how
My life got flipped, turned upside down
And I’d like to take a minute just sit right there
I’ll tell you how I became the prince of a town called bel-air

In west philadelfia born and raised
On the playground where I spent most of my days
Chilling out, maxing, relaxing all cool
And all shooting some b-ball outside of the school
When a couple of guys said we’re up in no good
Started making trouble in my neighbourhood
I got in one little fight and my mom got scared
And said you’re moving with your aunte and uncle in bel-air

I whistled for a cab and when it came near the
Licensplate said fresh and had a dice in the mirror
If anything I could say that this cab was rare
But I thought now forget it, yo home to bel-air

I pulled up to a house about seven or eight
And I yelled to the cabby yo, home smell you later

Looked at my kingdom I was finally there
To settle my throne as the prince of bel-air

http://www.warnerbros.co.uk/television/freshprince/index.htm

life is good but hectic

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 03:50:28 GMT

So we're officially into school. I absolutely love my classes, even though they will all kick my butt. I'm taking a seminar on Urban Education, Business Stats, a history class called The City in History, Aesthetics and Intro to Anthropology. I have so much reading to do it blows my mind but I work so much better in fast paced life so hopefully I will do really well this semester. I also hope to get involved in this program through my Urban Education seminar working with teens to better their community. For those of you who didn't really talk to me Sophomore year, this really fits me because that is when I really got interested. I'm still pursuing that dream.
I have gotten over the summer, its gone and in the past now. And I'm really grateful for all that has happened these past two weeks. I have awesome friends and I can manage work and homework around them. I won't let myself burn out. Those of you who I haven't seen yet, I will hopefully see this Thanksgiving... that is if you'll still have me ;)
I got promoted at work so now I make 7.50 an hour though I haven't gotten my first paycheck yet. There have been a few problems at the library lately, but they should work out. Hopefully I can finally get all my textbooks tomorrow and then I can catch up on what I've been missing. As for now, I'm exhausted and happy. Tomorrow brings yet another day of exciting classes, and later, the Dave Matthews Band concert. Fun times indeed.

Danger: I've become addicted to coffee being as tired as I am and working the hours I do with 8:30 classes. well not addicted yet, but I could definitely see it happening in the near future.

I love Liz. She really does inspire me to be a better person. Partly because she's so great herself.

Also... If any of you pray... this is probably one of the only times I will ask, but could you please pray for all the victims and survivors in New Orleans?? I haven't contacted Helen yet, but I hope she's ok. I never realized how many friends I have that are connected to New Orleans. Candy, I'm so sorry about your family and I hope you hear from your dad soon. There are many people here at Trinity that are from there. One of my friends completely lost his house. Please keep them in your prayers and I hope that everything is going well for the rest of you.

sountracks really are much easier to deal with

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 06:27:51 GMT

you get a taste of such different kinds of music and theyre fun to listen to because they remind you of your favorite movies.

i think from now on, i am going to make it a point to buy more soundtracks than cds of artists. unless the music of the artist varies, listening to a whole cd can be boring sometimes. thank god for itunes and the shuffle setting :)

blah blah blah

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 04:12:05 GMT

im bored...
shoot me...
no really don't, i want to go back to school...
*sigh*
ive read too many books to be on summer vacation and im starting another one by the way...

if you have not read the half blood prince, get on it now!
though i have to agree with abbie, it was good, but kindof weak... kinda didnt live up to expectations
so many unexpected twists though! man READ IT NOW!

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 23:59:11 GMT

Your wise quote is: "Be kind to unkind people,
they probably need it the most" by
Ashleigh Brilliant.
You try to look beyond apperance, try to give
people second chances and are probably very
kind. Understanding is your biggest personality
trait, and thoose you can see through should be
grateful. If they aren't already. You detest
narrow minded people, because they can't see
what's really there. Facades is not your thing
and you strive to always be who you really are.

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